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Remain with it. There are two types of emptiness. One: negative emptiness, another: positive emptiness.

Negative emptiness is loneliness. You miss the presence of something or somebody. You are not enjoying the purity of aloneness. You are missing: the wife has died and now you feel empty because her presence was a sort of filling, her presence was giving you a feeling of fullness. Now she is dead. Now you feel empty, you miss her. This emptiness is negative.

Then there is a positive emptiness. Positive emptiness does not miss the absence of somebody else. On the contrary, it cherishes, relishes, the presence of oneself. When you are sitting alone, just enjoying yourself, just delighting in being, you are empty – but this emptiness is positive.

The negative emptiness is of the Devil and the positive emptiness is of God. Both are empty, but there is a tremendous difference in quality. One has to move toward the positive emptiness, and this is what is happening.

“I feel empty, and a deep yearning, and there seems no way to let go.”

There is no need. Just allow this emptiness. Don’t try to change it. That’s how the mind enters again from the back door. The Humpty Dumpty has gone out. Now remain with this emptiness. Relish it! It is beautiful, there is nothing like it. It is innocence, it is silence, it is stillness, it is virginity. But when the Humpty Dumpty goes out for the first time, you have never known this positive emptiness, you have always known the negative emptiness. You mis-interpret. You think this too is empty: the same negative emptiness. You want to come out of it. There is no need. Relax in it. Be it, allow it, and don’t try in any way to change it or modify it.

Difficult! This is the death, the real death, out of which is the resurrection. This is the cross, the real cross. Everybody has to carry it daily, and not only to carry it daily, but dancingly – welcoming it, feeling a deep gratitude.

When you enter this emptiness for the first time, you will feel this is the same emptiness – naturally, because you have never known it before. Allow it, remain with it. That’s what I would like to say to you. Don’t try to think beyond it in any way. Be it. And suddenly the focus changes, the gestalt changes. The attention shifts and you look into it – and it is no longer loneliness, it is aloneness; it is no longer isolation, it is infinite presence. You have disappeared, and in that disappearance God has appeared.

God and you are just gestalts. If you are there, God remains hidden. When you disappear, he becomes manifest. When you come back again, he becomes hidden. Your very presence hides him; your presence functions as a cloud.

Enjoy it, allow it, love it. And remain more and more in it. Whenever you have time, don’t waste it anywhere. Close your eyes, be empty, and soon the beauty of it will be revealed to you. By and by, you will have a taste of the new wine, absolutely new, because you have not known it before – although it has always been there but you have never contacted it before. It will intoxicate you, it will make you ecstatic. You will be transformed through it.

So don’t try to find a way out. There is no way out of it because it is all. You cannot go anywhere else. The only way out is for you to bring Humpty Dumpty back in. The only way out is for the mind to start functioning again – in fear. You gather thoughts around, you make relationships; you go to the marketplace, you get lost in the crowd. Then you are not empty. You have missed. You have missed the door you have been seeking for lives.