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Yes, whenever I look at you.

You may not see my tears, you may not hear my cry – but always when I look at you, crying is there. Because of that, I go on working on you. It is not only to help you to come out of your misery, it is to help myself also. If you come out of your misery, I will come out of my misery. That is created by your misery.

It is said that when Buddha reached to the Ultimate’s door, he stopped there, he wouldn’t enter. The door was open; the devas, the gods, were ready to welcome him in but he wouldn’t enter. The devas asked him, “Why are you standing there? Come in. We have been waiting for you for ages. You are welcome. You have returned home.”

Buddha said, “I will stay here, I will have to stay here. Until the last human being passes by me and enters, I cannot enter.”

This is a beautiful parable. Don’t take it literally, but it is true. Once you become aware, once you become a being – once you are – infinite compassion arises in you. Buddha has made compassion the criterion of enlightenment.

Once you have attained, you don’t suffer for yourself, but you suffer for others: seeing the misery all around, seeing the whole absurdity of it – seeing the possibility that you can come out of it immediately, right now, and still you go on clinging.

With one hand you push it away, with another hand you pull it close. You go on creating your own prisons and still you would like to be freed. Your whole effort is contradictory. You want to come to the east and you go toward the west.

Seeing you, yes, I always cry.