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Rupa, that’s how we go on creating new goals. I go on taking goals from you and you go on creating new goals. Now one hundred percent trust becomes the goal; ninety-nine percent and you are worried.

Can’t you simply be as you are? Why bother about one hundred percent trust? Trying to be one hundred percent when you are not is bound to create hypocrisy. You will become artificial, you will become unnatural. Do you know what one hundred percent trust means? One hundred percent trust means trusting even in your mistrust – that’s what one hundred percent trust means. If there is a moment of distrust, you trust that moment, too! What can you do? One moment you trust me, good; another moment you don’t trust me, good. This is one hundred percent trust. When all is good, it is one hundred percent trust.

Now you are again trying to create trouble and anxiety for yourself. One moment you trust me – good, you feel very good. Then another moment comes distrust – now you are worried, now somehow you have to change this distrust into trust. Now you are again starting a new ladder. Now you will compare: “Somebody has one hundred percent trust, this moment never comes to him. And somebody has even less trust than me.” You are becoming part of a hierarchy, you have started comparing, you are creating ambition and fever. And when it does not happen, what are you going to do? And anything done by you will be unnatural. So you will become artificial: when it is not there you will pretend. You will believe at least on the surface that it is there; you will become afraid of going deep into yourself, because if you go deep into yourself you will know it is not there.

One hundred percent trust means: Accept life whatsoever it brings – trust, mistrust, love, hate, God, devil, good, bad. You don’t try to change anything, don’t try to correct anything. Be in a let-go – that is one hundred percent trust. Let me remind you again, otherwise tomorrow Rupa will be here saying, “I can allow let- o sometimes, but sometimes it doesn’t happen. The let-go is not one hundred percent.” Let-go again means the same: when it happens, it happens; when it doesn’t happen, it doesn’t happen. You are not supposed to do a thing.

Do anything and you become artificial – and people have become so artificial. It is very rare, very rare, to see even a small part in a person which is not artificial. And it has all happened, this calamity has happened, because you are such a great improver, continually improving upon yourself, correcting and correcting. From your very childhood your parents were correcting you, then your teachers were correcting you, then your professors were correcting you, your priests were correcting you, the whole society has just been correcting you. And, naturally, after twenty-five years of correction by everybody, you yourself become a great corrector. Then you start correcting yourself.

In fact, you are allowed to leave the university only when you start doing the work of the parents and the teachers and the professors and the priest on your own. Then they will allow; then they will say, “Right, now there is no danger. This man will do whatsoever we were doing, and will do it far better because he will know from the inside, he will know the inside story.”

Have you not observed it? Sometimes doing something, suddenly you hear your mother’s voice: “Don’t do it!” If you have not heard it, try to hear, and you will find your mother still saying, “Don’t do it!” actually your mother’s voice you can hear, or your father’s, saying, “This is wrong. This is not the way to do the thing. Correct it!” Or your teachers correcting. They have created such a rift in you that you have become two.

This whole society exists in a kind of schizophrenia. Every person is split. This society has tried the trick of “divide and rule”; it has divided every person into two: the corrector and the one who has to be corrected. So everybody has become like a small student and the headmaster – both are there! And the headmaster with the cane shouting and threatening, and the small child always being corrected. And, of course, the small child also takes revenge. Whenever the headmaster is not looking at the child, he does something – at least he can show his tongue or laugh or joke. Or there are moments when the small child will take possession of you and will force you to do something that you never wanted to do, and will make you repent. It always says, “Yes, sir,” but it never means it. It says, “Because I am afraid I am saying yes, but I will show you!” This constant conflict goes on within you, and then everything becomes false, pseudo, phony.

I have heard…

Groom: “Would you be very annoyed with me if I confess that all my upper teeth are false?”
Bride: “Not at all, darling. At least I can now relax and take off my wig, inflatable bra, glass eye and artificial leg.”

Now what is left? Just watch what you are carrying around yourself, what you think is your personality. What is it?

An American tourist, visiting England, had just enjoyed a delicious dinner in a Winchester restaurant.
“Would you like coffee, sir?” inquired a waiter.
“Certainly,” replied the American.
“Cream or milk?”
“Neither,” said the American firmly. “Just give me what I’m used to back home: a pasteurized blend of water, corn syrup solids, vegetable oil, sodium caseinate, carrageenan, guargum, disodium phosphate, polysorbate 60, sorbitan monostearate, potassium sorbate, and artificial color.”

Now what is left? Slowly, slowly, everything becomes false, artificial, synthetic, plastic. Then you lose the taste of life. And when you lose the taste of life, you lose contact with God. When you become inauthentic, you become uprooted.

Please don’t try anything upon yourself. Stop trying; let things be. Let things be as they are. They are utterly beautiful; all ugliness is created by you. Yes, sometimes mistrust is perfectly beautiful. Sometimes doubt is good: it protects you from many foolishnesses, it protects you from gullibility. Sometimes trust is good, sometimes no trust is good. But whatsoever the case, I call this one hundred percent trust – that you always say, “Good, so this is the thing in this moment. So this moment God wants me to be trustful and this moment God wants me to be doubtful.” Leave it to God, and you simply be at the receptive end, a receptacle, and you will be surprised. Life will start happening to you and God will start happening to you. But we are trained very deep down from childhood to be false, to be untrue, to be formal.

An Englishwoman and her young son were traveling in a taxi in New York. As the taxi passed a particularly seedy part of the city, the small boy was fascinated by the garishly made-up ladies who were walking along the streets, accosting some of the male passers-by. “What are those ladies doing?” asked the boy. His mother blushed and said, somewhat embarrassed, “I expect they are lost and are asking people for directions.” The taxi driver overheard this, and said in a loud voice, “Why don’tcha tell the boy the truth – in other words they’re prostitutes.” The woman blushed even deeper red, and her son asked, “What are p…p…pros…what the driver said? Are they like other women? Do they have children?” “Of course,” replied the mother. “That’s where New York taxi drivers come from.”

Truth is not accepted anywhere; people are annoyed with truth. False pretensions are very, very acceptable. We have lived in lies for so long that truth simply annoys. It is not just an accident that Socrates was poisoned – his only sin was that he was trying to make people aware of the truth. His sin was nothing else. He was a simple, innocent man, harmless, utterly harmless. He had not harmed anybody in any way, but still Athens was angry. Why were they angry? He was trying to make people feel uneasy about their lies; he was trying to force them to see the truth. Whosoever tries to make you aware of the truth is going to be thought an enemy by the society. The society lives in lies, it depends on lies.

I am not here to help in your lies. I can’t say to you to be one hundred percent in trust, or at least the way you mean by one hundred percent. Then what will happen to those moments when you can’t trust? What will you do? You will simply cover them up. You will pretend that they are not there. You will throw them into the unconscious, in the basement of your being, and will never look there. And they will accumulate there and one day they will explode. No, that is not to be done. When distrust comes, allow it to come, and know that it is there. Accept it. It must have some meaning. If it is there, it must have some meaning.

It is like a thorn in the rosebush – it is not all roses, there are thorns, too. They protect the roses. There must be some deep harmony between the thorn and the rose; so there is between trust and untrust. Accept the harmony of polarities. This I call one hundred percent trust – from my side. Trust everything that happens. Mistrust is included, doubt is included; nothing is excluded.

I teach you totality in life. And sometimes when you are not total, that too, is included in totality. Accept that too, and this will be a liberation. Then there will be no more creation of chains, no more creation of lies, no more repressions. And a man who is not repressed is bound to have a glimpse of the real man. One glimpse of the real man, and Ikkyu is right, you are in love.

Enough for today.